A Glimpse of Nothingness and Less

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 13:38:00 GMT

Alright. Screw it. Justeen made me do it. I'm moving.

Comment to be added on other journal, or i'll just add that people i want to.

waywardheart

done!

hmmm

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 20:28:15 GMT

I've been putting this off... just because I'm too lazy... but here we go. It was about time.

Comment to be added? Or not. I'll just delete some people who i don't really read their journal or whatever. Meh.

prom 2004

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 05:06:45 GMT

I found Prom to be quite lovely.

I chatted with some people who i haven't seen for awhile... which was very calming.

I really hope that my photographs turned out well...

Jeff's date was also very sweet. We're (Troy and I) are hoping to go with when taking her (Emma) back to Sackville.

Jeremy, Derrianne, Manda, and Mike also came to visit me before i went to prom. They were all so very cute as usual.

Mmmm. I'm exhausted. Too much dancing. Troy looked great. Off to sleep now...spending the night at Troys.

rocket summer. hmm.

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 15:58:20 GMT

Mmm...

Movie date with Manda on Friday night. It was very nice. She made me fall more in love with her music, which i've taken too. Thanks Manda. Your a doll.

My last shift at A&W was yesterday night. It's so wonderful to know that i don't have to work there until September. It's crazy. It really is.

Deanna. *heart*. I can't wait till our date this week.

Today i was suppose to go with my parents to take the truck up to Halifax... but i'm going to stay home and organize things for camp, for the church in PEI, record some songs, and just hang out with myself. I haven't had quality time like this for awhile.

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 22:31:35 GMT

I was walking Jimbo... my dog... down past the lake

and on my back i hear... "OH MY GOD... WHAT IS THAT?"

Frig. Like people have never seen a dog before.

Ugh!

basics.

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 05:20:35 GMT

I write my last exam in 8 hours.

... and i have 2 more shifts left at A&W.

[smiles]

then

[yawns]

guitar intro here.

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 04:36:29 GMT

Lately i've become.
very bitter

... and i have no idea why.

[maybe because Jesus is the only one who really knows whats happening with me]

i hope i get out of this mood soon.

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 18:48:43 GMT

Gotten through my wave unit only 6 or so more to go. Work 5 - Cl. i don't know how i'll fit it all in by tomorrow. Why am i such a procrastinator?

Jesus blood never failed me yet. (even if i don't know phyics)

Off to more.

P.S: My Dad sold his truck. Now we have money for groceries.

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 21:39:34 GMT

Last day of school. (Shwang)

Now 4 exams next week.

I'm camping with Troy tonight? Maybe? I'm so terrible at making plans.

Had a lovely day yesterday with Manda, Jeff, Ashley and Greg. Icecream, swimming, badminton, hiding ashley's sandle, swings, driving, music, fun fun.

Cancer walk tomorrow.

(my dog has more food then us in the house)

back.

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 03:41:48 GMT

Baaaaack. From PEI. I got back this afternoon. I had a lovely time there. The wedding was wonderful. I wasn't too nervous playing either. It just kind of was sad that i didn't really get to watch the wedding in the beginning because i was playing for it. But it was great!

I have a new friend. His name is Barry. And he lives in Illinois. He is Lori's friend and about 10 years older than me. But my new friend none the less. While Lori and Jason were off signing papers during the wedding ... Lori asked Barry and I to sing "God of Wonders". So we sang it together while i played guitar. It was awesome. I got a lot of compliments too. I think it was because no one even knew that i played guitar.

The minster after the church service came to talk with me. Which was nice. To thank me. Lori later on told me that he was "blown away by my playing" which was flattering. Then during the reception the ministers wife came over to me and asked for my music to worship songs. They are getting a youth band together. So i am going to do up a nice little booklet and send some to her in the mail. I'm excited. It's gonna be my new little project. (smiles)

Troy was never to PEI before. And he really liked it there. My grandmother was way too cute. I can't wait to see her in August. Troy and I also are going to start playing music together. Just go crazy and see what happens. I'm escatic about that as well.

Too much to say

I also thought this was funny:

hypnotizedqueen's LJ stalker is bigalrose!

bigalrose is stalking you because your LiveJournal is just SO damned interesting. They are also leaving anonymous abuse on your journal!

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I'm uploading our photos from the wedding.
We also have like 4 films. I will most likely take those in tomorrow =)

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 03:35:22 GMT

By 11:00am tomorrow morning i'm off to P.E.I.

Finally.

I haven't studing for Bio yet, and i write it tomorrow morning. Troy tried to remind me that it won't be the end of the world. He's right.

Josee brought me Big Dicks today. =)

I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. I wanna quit. Thats all i have to say about work. We aren't allowed to ask for days off anymore. Meaning i can't ask for a few days off for exams, or prom. Or anything. yay? [pukes]

someone?

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 03:49:08 GMT

Good thing i called in sick from work

Went to Troy's and worked and worked my butt off to get my homework done. It's not all done yet. I'll be up for another few hours. Just great. Great. Wonderful. Lovely. I wanna die.

Troy got really upset tonight too, i felt really bad. I cried. He thinks my mom hates him. She's been giving me crappy vibes lately and she's been acting like such a moron towards me. I don't know ... seriously... what her problem is. It's not like i'm a terrible person. I wen't over to Troy's to work on our Physics projects all day long. Wow. Big rebelness going on here.

I'm sour.

I actually considered running away. I hate my home now. Thats why i'm never here. I'm never on the internet anymore.

I'd hiding.

Sat, 29 May 2004 03:40:56 GMT

I think i am going to crap my pants.

Ha. I'm at Troy's dorking it up.

he is running around with no shirt on... music blasting... singing, and has shaving cream all over his face. How romantic.

Going to go and see "Day After Tomorrow" with Laura tomorrow... then work tomorrow night.

On a more serious note:
I went home after lunch today too... went to Mahone Bay with my dad and bought my mom a birthday present at Amos Pewter. On the way home... the only thing my dad said was, "you girls ... i hope you realize what a great mother you two really have, i'm lucky to have a wife so wonderful"

I had to hold back my tears.

Fri, 28 May 2004 11:34:27 GMT

It's Friday...

But why am i unhappy?

I'm always cranky the days i have to work. Maybe thats it.

Wed, 26 May 2004 04:16:22 GMT

Ben says:
you are a loving girl
Ben says:
you make me wanna hug people
Ben says:
I do think of you when i feel discouraged, yo uare a very strong individual, very loving, and a fine Christian lady

Mega Machines?

Wed, 26 May 2004 03:00:43 GMT

Ben says:
you have been a giant role model to me
Ben says:
you are like green, you are so giant
Ben says:
the hulk, jolly green giant
Ben says:
giants are always green

(i like green)

I'm gonna die.
-goes to a cornor and cries... then smiles.-

Well at least it's almost Wednesday. which is pretty sweet. Work was actually fun tonight. i ate cake.

I really need to start working on my songs. Guitarting. mmm.

Sun, 23 May 2004 04:16:23 GMT

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this exact same sentence in your journal.

*yawn

Wed, 19 May 2004 02:45:00 GMT

I knew i was tired. But i didn't realize how tired i really was. I went for a nap at 4:45, and didn't wake up till 8:15. And i only woke up because the phone rang. I first thought i slept through the night. Craziness.

BOTB tomorrow night, with Josee, Troy, and Manda? Deanna?

I now have lots of homework to get finished up and studing, and all that jazz because i lost a few hours. At least I have more sleep in me though. [smiles]

Mon, 17 May 2004 03:59:03 GMT

I ate 10 oreos in 7 minutes.

Meeting - Tomorrow
BOTB - Wednesday
work - Thursday
camp orientation - Friday/Saturday/Sunday
camping with Troy? - Monday

I'm so lazy. (but not really?) I never update this thing. During this whole weekend i think i only got 5 hours of sleep. Go me? Crazy me!

Tue, 11 May 2004 00:55:08 GMT

Jerk.

"Well, you can do whatever you want this summer, i'm taking a vacation" - My mom

"Wheres that music coming from?" - My Dad

I've come to a conclusion that my parents don't like my mellow soft music, and don't want me to work and do missions work for God.

Meh.

(But my sister loves me?)
At least she doesn't judge me. Frig.

Spring 4th?

Sun, 09 May 2004 01:03:31 GMT

Spring 4th... was really awesome.

But i'm dead...
and am sleeping right now.

Goodnight all 'yus.

weekends... gotta love em.

Sat, 01 May 2004 12:05:28 GMT

Yesterday was a wonderful inservice day. Even though i spent the morning at the school. That was a tad bit uncomfortable. Ashley and I headed over to Tony's to relax for a few hours. Then we called up Susy, i splurged on slushies, and went off to Susy's place. We hung out there for a little bit. They got really sunburnt. Then we went off to Ashley's before Youth Group, Youth Group which was a riot, and then off to track down Troy and Jeff. They were really hard to find. We ended up finding them... and they came over at 10:00pm, brought icecream and Gothika. That movie was actually really good. Then Troy, Jeff and myself went out on Ashley's trampoline, while she slept, and talked for hours. I have no idea what time i went to sleep.

Meh.

I have to work at 11:00. Blah.

At least i'm clean.

(I wanna call Deanna but i don't know if she would be awake?)

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 04:35:25 GMT

Pardon me, while i burst?

Ugh i'm annoyed. I have to go to school tomorrow while everyone sleeps in. I guess i should feel kind of special. Out of 1000 students, i ... one out of 10 got picked for some improvement thing for the school. Screw it. Shouldn't be too bad. I just have to wake up in like 6 hours.

I feel like crying my eyes out SO BAD right now though. But it's one of those things that you are actually crying so hard that tears can't form.

I'm so worried about Garrett; that i'd die for him.

AHHH Pardon me, while i burst?

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 02:52:02 GMT

Joel hit my pelvic/hip bone tonight by accident; he freaked out. He thought it was a belt. I guess my bone sticks out. It was great. I also wrote a letter to his girlfriend telling her that whenever it rains... it makes me hungry.

I need sleep desperatly.

Worked for the 4th day in a row today... finally i have tomorrow off.

I really wanna go on the school trip to London/Paris/Rome. (whines).

To everyone camp: I got new deodorant and i must have had the same scent at camp. Now i can smell camp all day long. As long at it smells good; and not like stinky feet ;]

Jesus i'm holidng to you.

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 17:37:47 GMT

Promises shattered
Answers don't come
Friends say goodbye
Plans come undone
Dreams get crushed
Lies get told
Words can turn cruel
Hearts can grow cold

CHORUS
In a broken world where we cry to feel
Some hope that helps these hearts to heal
You're my strength, You're my refuge
In a broken world, Jesus I'm holding to You

You make sense of the madness
And You make darkness flee
You bring such a calm
To the chaos in me
Show me life
Tell me truth
Day after day I keep running to You

Youth Sunday went wonderful. Everyone did a really good job. You guys rawk. Spring 4th countdown -> 12 days. =)

Interesting week ahead of me... a lovely inservice on Friday is just a blessing. It will make me feel better about the week while in it. Have a good week everyone.